game over

It's over. I didn't really feel it until Smith gave us that speech after our final. Fuck. And I looked at Miguel. And then it hit me hard. I'm never gonna have another class with him, no more notes to copy, no more working on our projects together. Fuck. And Jer would write the most sentimental shit, too. Ugh. Then York's class. Sean's like "Can we just stop the clock? I don't wanna leave this." 5 more minutes of my favorite class. That shit hit me hard too. Teo and I just looked at eachother for the longest time and then I heard that and I couldn't help it. And it's so much harder since we're in magnet. I've been going to school with the same people all four years. I mean, I got so sick of them. Ahaha. But now it's just like... I won't be seeing these people for how long. I took all that shit for granted. It's just like Jerwyn said "But seeing you at school everyday, knowing i get to see your face, it made me feel... safe. At home." FUCK. And dance. Today was the last time I'd ever spend official class time in that studio. I was one of the originals, the pioneers. We started that shit and it's all over. We're not a part of it anymore. No doubt I'ma be over there every chance I get, but I'm not a part of it and it's sad. FUUUCK.

Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me.
I don't want you, but I need you,
I love you and hate you at the very same time.

Tomorrow is the dance banquet. The last official thing I'm having with the team I helped start. God, this is really happening.

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things i can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

two days left.

And I'm out! Thank gooooodnesss. (:


Too bad I'll be stressing about my stupid party though. Fuck



P.S. I learned this routine today (: PrettyGyrls are my idol!

all these jokers,

how I hate them. Sweet Charity is stuck in my headdd. I still wish we danced Hey Big Spender though. Oh well. The dance show's coming along! I'm just too tired for it. I've got this massive headache that hasn't gone away ;[ boo. I fucking miss my stupid boyfriend. Finals are next week and then what the hell, graduation rehearsals?! We got our yearbooks too. I'm in like 6 pages (; Too bad one picture if fucking disgusting. Ugh. But I'm almost done. 12 days ! I got this shit.

SUCCESS!

Finalllllly! I'm finished with my stupid senior project! Now all we gotta do is present, haha. Let's do King Taco for celebration (:

Anywayyy. Things have been going alright! I mean, school sucks, homework's a kill joy but what else is new? I hate Justin still (; I say that only 'cause he actually reads this shit. Ahahaha.

Hm, prom was fun! What's up acrobats and shit? Three stories, what? Free photobooths?! Buffet? Talk about overwhelming right? Too bad I lost some shit that night. Ahahahhaha. Not that bad, actually.

Justin's prom was fun tooooo. His friends are funny. I love Dina, haha. My hair was a fail but my make up looked good! (: But tell me why we all had more fun in the parking lot than at the actual prom. Hahaha. Tell me why I lost more shit this night. Oh wow, lolol.

I don't get to see babylove for another 95 hours. Fuck you 80 miles! Hm, tuesday traditions would have pulled through if I didn't have so much damned homework. Gay! 'Cause I miss Curt. Boo.




Haha, we're funny.
Well, more like I'm funny.

lauren: what were you thinking about?

justin: You!

lauren: what about me

justin: How did I pull you?

lauren: with your stealthlike cat skills. i donno baby you're amazing if you hadn't noticed.

justin: I hadn't noticed...what makes me so amazing?

lauren: your butt, duh!

justin: That's it?!?! My donk?!?!

lauren\: duh. wtf. what else would it be?

justin: -_-

not mad,

just disappointed. so disappointed.