MOVED.

come find me (;

God is good.

Home from a weekend with DWHL, God, & Melissa Reyes (;

hola!

Dominican Republic was alriiiight. It was so so so hot though! And I have about 20 mosquito bites. Pictures later.


Hmm, tomorrow is our 4 months. He says he has a master plan up his sleeve, ahah. Thursday is work & Friday-Sunday is DWHL. Aw, the retreat we met at. Too bad his punk ass would leave me for Rock the Bells on Saturday night. Haha, oh well, I can hang. Have fun, babycakes!


I'm watching re-runs of the men's gymnastics from the Bejing Olympics lol. K bye!

Blah

Things have been rough the past couple of weeks. Pretty much this whole month, really. Oh well, fuck the bullshit.

Arizona was ... boring. Aha I guess it's just 'cause I'm not into that kinda shit. Dominican Republic here I come (:

Greg & Kimmy's baby shower was fun! Fucking Justin's a little pussy bitch, can't hold his alcohol. He made me drive half the way home! Lord Jesus.


Anyway, nothing worth blogging about. Adios!

Fuck it,

you'll always be closed minded.


I hate you, you're impossible. Whatever.



And learn to spell correctly, it's really starting to fucking piss me off more than you already do by yourself.

Compromise,

It works.



My boyfriend's in Hawaii & I'm at home. I went to the AA sale today & it was well worth the 2 & 1/2 hour wait in line & the tan lines. Except I couldn't go to work 'cause I've been feeling.. let's say, not my best. Ugh. But! I spent $106, and I ended up getting shiny leggings, a white terry cloth romper, a black tshirt dress, a magenta/black skirt, 3 le sac dress, 4 circle scarves, and 2 vnecks for babylove.


Anyway, I'm leaving for Arizona in a week. Keep me company 'til then since Justin won't come back 'til two days after I leave -_- Ayeee. Then I have around 5/6 days in Cali & hopefully I can spend that time with Justin 'cause I leave for the Dominican right after.

On a side note, Momma bought me Hello Kitty socks, woo (:
I'm tired, and still hurting. I'm probably gonna go lay down afterwards.
I'm sleeping in the mint vneck I got babyboy 'cause I dgaf!

what?

You can't handle the heat?


Haha, stupid bitch, I have nothing to hide. If you're gonna talk shit, make sure you have enough balls to hang with what I'm gonna come at you with.


Get over it, you pathetic piece of shit. Keep up with us, dang.






P.S. Mine didn't either, but if you're gonna make me assume shit, I will. So fuck you pussy ass hater, you should do you. Oh, & by the way, I've got what it takes to back up my ego, ugly ho, how about you? At the end of the day, the guy you still love is with me. (;

the audacity.

Ooh, can you believe? Thiiiis bitch.



This is how it do, you is how it don't
Talkin' all this shit, but you know you really won't.
Feelin' insecure when I come around the spot.



Don't try me, bitch, I can get vicious. You little whiny, washed up bitch.

i won't lie..

my boyfriend & I are really cute sometimes. He came to my house around 12 & held out some Black & White Arizona & is like "Sorry, I meant to buy this for you but I kinda got thirsty.." Ahahaha. After a whole day of errands, we finally got our turtle. We named her Princess Sophia. Ahahaha yeah, we know it's known as penis in How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days, but we dgaf! (;

;D

Fuck the pictures, ahaha. The past three days were my favorite. Aha, well this month at least.

Wednesday: Woke up, went to Buffalo Exchange to sell some clothes, woo. Too bad they got only three things -_- thennn went the the bank to deposit my TWO HUNDRED dollar paycheck (; ahahah. It ain't much but more than usual. Went to Ralphs to buy Justin a lei & a grad bear, haha. Then went home & got readyyy. Got to his Tita Cecile's house and we all left for his graduation. Haha bonding time with Justin's aunts. We're best friends now! Ahhaha. Tita Cecile ended up buying the lei from me 'cause no one could get one, lol. We went to the graduation & tell me why baby lost his tassle -_- he would. Ahh I'm so proud of him though! My baby's graduateddd! Then we met him & took pictures. Too bad my dad would take my memory card & use all my battery w/o telling me. So his sister Jhanelle gave me her camera to take pics of him with his friends while they went to get the reservations I made. Baby & I stayed and then when he was semi-satisfied we lefttt.There was SO much traffic. We finally ended up at Bj's & we ate with everyyyone. I didn't know how good Bj's was until then! Aha, yumm. We headed back to Justin's and then his friends Greg and Kimmy came over & we watched Rollmodels. They left before the movie ended. Baby & I finished it and then just layed down on his bed for a litttle. Or more like a while. His mom had to come up and tell him to let me sleep, ahaha. Then I went to bed in his room & he slept on the couch, haha. Sorry!

Thursday: Baby came up to wake me up. We showered & got ready. We got all our stuff together & went on our way. We had Lollicup for breakfast, lol. We drove allll the way to Long Beach & checked into the hotel. Got situated and then went to the aquarium. I had so much fun, ahhaha. Wtf, I'm such a kid at these kinds of things. I even made him feed the lorikeets with me. They pretty much attacked us -_- After seeing everything we could, I bought us ice cream & decided we'd just go back to the hotel & rent movies & order room service. Too bad they didn't have the tvs where we could rent movies & they didn't have room service. But they had this service where we could order from restaurants for delivery. We just ordered from CPK and then baby went out to get some stuff. The food came & then he came back with drinks. We ate and lounged haha. Watched tv and just fell asleep. My stomach started hurting & his ankle started hurting too.

Today: We woke up & checked out & tried to go to King Taco but it was closed. Drove back and just had Baker's. Got to his house and slept until his momma came & we ate a little bit more. We all drove back to the valley & we dropped off his momma at his aunt's. When we got to my house we just hung out a little and then we headed to Los Toros. We ateee and now we're all drunk and full. Well the adults are drunk, at least. Baby just left a little while ago & I miss that bitch already.


On a heavier note; don't you hate it when people can't let it go? Just move on. Your life isn't gonna wait for you to mope around and bitch. Get up off your feet and find something to do that'll benefit you. 'Cause we all know that wanting to go back in time to live in what used to be isn't gonna do shit for you.
Yes or no?

moving forward.

rd: so you have a job
rd: you're legal.
rd: you just graduated
rd: you have a fucking lexus
rd: and you have a good boyfriend?
lc: haha i know right?
rd: shit, your life's sounding bomb as fuck right now.


<3
pics from graduation, grad dinner, birthday, birthday dinner, and birthday/grad party up soon! ahahah

eighteen.

Happy Birthday to me.




Let's see what today brings.

tomorrow

I will be disappointed. I already know.



Happy birthday to me..

really?

I graduate tomorrow. (:

me: "tell me why she's still in love with you."
justin: "tell me why i'm yours."
<3

game over

It's over. I didn't really feel it until Smith gave us that speech after our final. Fuck. And I looked at Miguel. And then it hit me hard. I'm never gonna have another class with him, no more notes to copy, no more working on our projects together. Fuck. And Jer would write the most sentimental shit, too. Ugh. Then York's class. Sean's like "Can we just stop the clock? I don't wanna leave this." 5 more minutes of my favorite class. That shit hit me hard too. Teo and I just looked at eachother for the longest time and then I heard that and I couldn't help it. And it's so much harder since we're in magnet. I've been going to school with the same people all four years. I mean, I got so sick of them. Ahaha. But now it's just like... I won't be seeing these people for how long. I took all that shit for granted. It's just like Jerwyn said "But seeing you at school everyday, knowing i get to see your face, it made me feel... safe. At home." FUCK. And dance. Today was the last time I'd ever spend official class time in that studio. I was one of the originals, the pioneers. We started that shit and it's all over. We're not a part of it anymore. No doubt I'ma be over there every chance I get, but I'm not a part of it and it's sad. FUUUCK.

Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me.
I don't want you, but I need you,
I love you and hate you at the very same time.

Tomorrow is the dance banquet. The last official thing I'm having with the team I helped start. God, this is really happening.

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things i can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

two days left.

And I'm out! Thank gooooodnesss. (:


Too bad I'll be stressing about my stupid party though. Fuck



P.S. I learned this routine today (: PrettyGyrls are my idol!

all these jokers,

how I hate them. Sweet Charity is stuck in my headdd. I still wish we danced Hey Big Spender though. Oh well. The dance show's coming along! I'm just too tired for it. I've got this massive headache that hasn't gone away ;[ boo. I fucking miss my stupid boyfriend. Finals are next week and then what the hell, graduation rehearsals?! We got our yearbooks too. I'm in like 6 pages (; Too bad one picture if fucking disgusting. Ugh. But I'm almost done. 12 days ! I got this shit.

SUCCESS!

Finalllllly! I'm finished with my stupid senior project! Now all we gotta do is present, haha. Let's do King Taco for celebration (:

Anywayyy. Things have been going alright! I mean, school sucks, homework's a kill joy but what else is new? I hate Justin still (; I say that only 'cause he actually reads this shit. Ahahaha.

Hm, prom was fun! What's up acrobats and shit? Three stories, what? Free photobooths?! Buffet? Talk about overwhelming right? Too bad I lost some shit that night. Ahahahhaha. Not that bad, actually.

Justin's prom was fun tooooo. His friends are funny. I love Dina, haha. My hair was a fail but my make up looked good! (: But tell me why we all had more fun in the parking lot than at the actual prom. Hahaha. Tell me why I lost more shit this night. Oh wow, lolol.

I don't get to see babylove for another 95 hours. Fuck you 80 miles! Hm, tuesday traditions would have pulled through if I didn't have so much damned homework. Gay! 'Cause I miss Curt. Boo.




Haha, we're funny.
Well, more like I'm funny.

lauren: what were you thinking about?

justin: You!

lauren: what about me

justin: How did I pull you?

lauren: with your stealthlike cat skills. i donno baby you're amazing if you hadn't noticed.

justin: I hadn't noticed...what makes me so amazing?

lauren: your butt, duh!

justin: That's it?!?! My donk?!?!

lauren\: duh. wtf. what else would it be?

justin: -_-

not mad,

just disappointed. so disappointed.

hm.

Prom. Haha, pretty epic weekend.

he's a balla.

Best, Best - Missy Elliott

He tight, my type, he give me what I like.

aww shit.

No pressure or anything.





I'm such a noob.

can you candle it?

I can handle it. Alone.



Care for me, care for me, I know you care for me.
There for me, there for me, said you'd be there for me.

springbreak09

So much has happened this break! From the very beginning it's been so fulfilling. Most enjoyable spring break so far.
FRIDAY: Got out of schoool and walked towards where my mom said she was and HELLO. Yes, I got my new car. ADKJ;F. 2000 Lexus GS300. It's beautiful. Ahh, I love it. Justin said I sounded like I was crying but really, I was only hyperventilating. Ahahaha. Then Tiffany, Monique, Ileana, and her friend came over for movie night. Teri came too but before then. Haha, yeah that's about it.
SATURDAY: After hula, I got home and my baby was in his car, in front of my house! (: Too bad I looked like shit. Cute. Anywayyy, I showered and got ready. Hmm, theeen we headed out to San Fernando for Melanie's debut dress fitting stufff. We never know what to do so afterwards we sat in my car FOREVER. We decided to go prom shopping for him & we FAIIILED. Hahaha, David's Bridal? Picked up my paycheck (; 114, woop! And then since we had nothing else to do, we just watched The Haunting in Conneticut. Not so fun. Haha and we triiied to have our first date kinda thing but dinner failed too. We ended up at Fuddruckers in Burbank, haha. But since I couldn't drive home alone, baby asked his momma if she could just pick him up at my houseee. We watched tv and stuff until she came. When she got there, it was like 1230am he said he needed to get something and he came back with a book. Hahaha, the one that Tiffany AND Melanie slipped about. But long story short, he's my boyfrieeeend, not my bitch, haha.
SUNDAY: Work and debut practice. I had to dance with a cup 'cause Alberto wasn't there. -_- Hooters for court bonding! (:
MONDAY: Had the whole house to myyyself. And the car! So I went to San Fernando again and gave the picture of my dress to the person making it. Then I went to a bunch of dollar stores and Target for streamers, paint, posterboard. All that good stuff. I mailed Dina the Build-A-Bear this day too. Then Melanie's Debut practice.
TUESDAY: Beach! Waited a year for Ileana to shower, went to Tiffany's. Haha "Who's the guy in this picture?" "Oh, that's.. my boyfriend." "AWWWW" Ahahaha. Got Subway and then headed to Zuma with Teri, Roel, Patrick, Jerwyn, Joe & Alice. Monique & Martin came afterrr. We played with the football a little and then Justin came! Aw. The things he does for me. That's a good bitch. HAHAHA just kidding! Hm, attempted to carry him but failed and kneed him in the balls. HAHA. On our way home I fell asleeeep, kinda got lost on our way back to Tiffany's and then chilled there for a tiny bit. We headed back to my house and watched Anchorman. Hahahaha, my sweet chinchilla! LMAO. Then my wild love tigress had to go home. ROFL. Ahahaha.
WEDNESDAY: Went "Camping" AHAHA. Went to Malibu with the family. Got home, did some homework. Then V.Ent practice. Chill day.
THURSDAY: Mission Impossible. Went to Rancho for a little, got balloons. Went to Bass Pro Shops for my dadddy. Ate at Buffalo Wild Wings and headed to set up at Justin's. Set up everything & waited a week for him to come home finally. Punk didn't even go to the duck pond. Haha but yeah, I stayed there for a while then got home around 11. Tiringgg.
FRIDAY: Hm went to work around 11:45, slow slow slow day! Whitney called to see if I could cover her until she got there & since Justin said he'd be a little late, I said okayy. While refilling some ice cream, I turned around and he was there! I felt bad 'cause I couldn't leave. Whitney ended up coming around 6:15. Seven hours, woop! Baby and I went to CPK & ateee. Then rented The Strangers and watched at home. Well half in my living room & then momma kicked us out so we watched the rest on my laptop in my room. Then he had to leave and I fell asleeep.

Busy, busy, busy. Come visit me at work today!
Cold Stone, Northridge; 7-close. (;

4509>1439

Hi, boyfriend! (:

nationals2009.

"Aim to win, not to place."

Pictures first. I'll add what the dirty details afterwards. (;