"do you feel awkward?"

Last night.. err tuesday night, was a failed success. Doesn't make sense but who cares. Dance was a fail. Hell no, I'm not waiting in line for two hours just to pay $15 to dance to techno with sweaty gay guys who are just too touchy. So we decide to go another day and Ian Abot texts us if we wanna hang out and we're like "well, got nothin' else to do." And after about an hour of not figuring out what to do we decided to just meet up at someone's house and figure it out there. And that was another fail. We were like "who's house? who's house?" I was like whatever, let's go to Starbucks. I get there a little early and my dad dropped me off. Curt was supposedly the only one there and I'm walking towards Starbucks when I hear "Lauren!" And he's there, chilllin' like a cool cat in his car. He told me to get in but when I was getting in my dad was still there and I'm pretty sure he saw me. Hahaha, sketchy? But then Tiffany came and we went to get out cofffeee. And we stayed outside just talking talking talking, youuu know. Daryl showed up and good thing we all clicked or it'd been so .. lame. Haha. Fuckin' Daryl and his scary stories, shiiit. And then allll of a sudden, it was like a Nobel reunion or someshit. Andrew Versales rolls up in his " 'stang" and then Brock Covington starts walking towards us. What the heckkk. Andrew came and talked to us for a little. But yeah, more scary stories. Thank God I was sleeping over Tiff's, shoot. I would not have been able to sleep. So we're there for like three hours already, still no idea on what to do. And it's so so so cooold! So we end up going to Denny's and I order the sampler. Oh my, I ate like two mozarella sticks and half a chicken strip and I was dooone. Curt goes to the bathroom and comes back and he's like "So, I was in the bathroom and halfway during my.. business.. there's a guy in the stall and he's like talking to himself while he's taking a dump. He was like 'Oh yes, baby. We can do it, ughhh'" HAHAHA. And so we literally spent the rest of our time there waiting for him to come out. "Num-ber two! Num-ber two!" Oh myy. We definitely need to do that again. Little coffee get togethers, aw cute. (:
So on our way home, it's just our luck that we're the only ones on the road and every light turns red. And Tiff starts like freaking out, locking the doors, rolling the windows up and she's like "OMG is that guy wearing a mask? What the fuck! Oh shit he's looking at me! Oh, what the fuuuck!" And by this time I see that she's talking about a guy riding his bike and he's already like past the car. I look back and that bitch looks back at the car! Freakin' after all the stupid scary stories we haaave to see him.
We get to Tiffany's and after settling down we went down stairs and watched some tv. We made brownies and sprinkled like marshmallows on top. 27 dresses came on so we watched that. Them brownies were the sweetest things! I couldn't even finish one, haha. The movie ended at like three so we went to her room and got into beddd. We ended up just watching more tv, hahaha. And then I had to use the ladies room haha. Her dog like attacked me, hahaha. After that little fiasco and addressing my battle scars we went to the bed agaiiin. We didn't end up sleeping until like five. Ooh my. Successful night!

I hope everyone had a safe and exciting New Year's! Try to be most optimistic for this year, let's make it better then 2008!
(:

hm

I'm just passing time until I can take a shower. Blahblahblah. We're supposed to go to the Griffith Observatory but I'm not so excited. My brothers never fail to upset me in the morning, haha. But also i have so much to do today. Dance later! Hopefully. And sleepover at Tiff's. Hopefully, haha.


I'm still tired!

awh, my boys.

Yeah so I was feelin' pretty down earlier. And it wasn't until I was leaving my grandma's after doing some errands that I felt better. Teo texted me and our conversation just made me laugh. Haha even if it wasn't in good humor. "Umm, I'm bored, make me baked goods." Anywayyy, I told him to come to the house and then Ian called, haha. He was like "Lauren, we're going to your house?" Aha. But yeah, I appreciate them so so so much. Like there was once I was recovering from a good cry in econ., yeah I know it's lame but it happened. And then Ian told me afterwards "Are you okay? I felt so bad for you, like I wanted to cry too." And bitchass Teo. Yeah, he's a punk most of the time, but in the end I know he's gonna tell it straight. They look after me and that's all I needed.



Ay yai yai. Movie night continues when Ian gets back from his game.
Come if you want! Starts at seven (:

ew

In all this change, there are just some people who stay the same. I would think by a certain age you learn to be the better person and save your words rather than make people feel like shit. Ugh, whatever. Like Destiny's Child told me, I'm not gonna blast you on the internet 'cause my momma taught me better than that.

Well last night and this morning were killlljoys. I fucking hate that shit. I really do hope 2009 has something better in store for me.

There's still so much I want to do this break. Like movie nights! And little dinner dates. And I have to get working on that physics project, ew. Whatever.

"Cheer up, Buttercup."

success!

Well, I am officially most satisfied. I think. Unless I screw it up again by speaking too soon.

So, a while back, I decided to save all my the money I would get from Christmas and use it towards buying a new phone. At first I thought I wouldn't be able to get it done 'cause I was getting really cute gifts rather than money, you know? But! Resisting the temptation to buy all the other cute things on sale today, I got my Blackberry Bold. I am so so so SO so so happy. And that's not even it! When I told my dad about my plan, he was like "why don't you just get a laptop or something?" 'cause we saw that at Living Spaces they were selling laptops for $295. And it was very tempting, let me tell you, but I decided to stay with plan a. And so this morning my mom comes into my room and she wakes me up, telling me to go into the kitchen. They bought it for me! Ahh, all these things that I've needed for the longest I finally got. This was a verrry successful holiday and I am more than content. Except, I did lose $10 at Vallarta today, haha. Oh well, at least I made someone else ten bucks richer. Money's tight!

merrrry christmas!

Why, no, it still doesn't feel like the holidays but! I am having fun nontheless. And even though Christmas eve was a lot different than it was last year, I had all the right kind of fun and in the perfect amount. And I used to get so disappointed when it came to opening gifts, like a little spoiled brat. Like my hopes were too high or something so I'd let myself down when I got what I did. But this year, I was more than satisfied. Even though what I'd gotten wasn't like the best thing in the world and everyone would be jealous of me or anything, but yeah. Anyyyway.

We spent it at my uncle Jun's house this year rather than grandma's or tita Mayette's. And he's always had the most inappropriate movies for events that took place at his house. This year it was some Japanese/Western remix directed by Tarantino. Yeah, don't ask me. So after a while I guess he got the hint because he changed the dvd and put in a concert dvd thing of David Foster and "friends". Oh my, well I fell in love with Michael Buble all over again. No, I don't care that he's got a stupid double chin, that man is sexy. And Charice Pempengco was in it! Can you believe? This little girl from the P.I. was invited by David Foster to sing in his concert. Haha, that girl makes me jealous. Not only does she have the vocals but she was in the same venue as my baby Michael was at the same time. Ha! Anyway, if you don't know who either of them are, I say you go check them out. Katherine McPhee was in it too. Is that how you spell it? Whatevs. But yeah, she's hot! Except her boobs are gettin' kinda saggy, we've decided. And Josh Grobin looks like a Jonas brother.

Someone give me some voice lessons!
Merry christmas again (:

completely irrelevant

But that is some good advice.

p.s.!

Here's my wish list. Just in case you were wondering (;


Sephora.
Because I've developed some sort of fetish.


Sephora's Vanilla Cupcake Body Butter $16.


Benefit's Dr. Feelgood Lipscription $32


Benefit's Dr. Feelgood $28


Benefit's Realness Of Concealness $32


Mac.
To continue with my newborn fetish.


Nail Lacquer in Dark Angel $11




Tinted Lip Conditioner SPF 15 in Gentle Coral or Plum Perfect. $14.50




Lip Conditioner SPF15 $13.50.



Eh, more later. Toodles!

aw man

Why do I always lose my stupid hair tie? Okay, maybe not always, considering I've been able to keep it around me since like october, but I can never find another one. Anyway, does anyone else feel like this break's gonna be unsatisfactory? Like there's so much I want to do but I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to. I think we were supposed to go to dance today but I've been going out a little much, I'm not going to deny it. I need to choose my events better and although I've gone to the ones where the people mean more to me, I didn't really have as much fun as I hoped to. I'm guessing 'cause my hopes were real high. Whatevs.

Who knew wrapping presents could be so fun? Haha, and Yvette has become my new favorite person. Ever since "Oh, my God, open it. Oh, my God, Oh, my God that's so you!" Melanie and I have decided to let her come over for a little rendevous and do some bonding over Click and Hip Hop Abs with Shaun T. Ahh, I need to get started on organizing some movie nights. I miss those most about my winter breaks. But I've lost and gained so many different friends, I'm scared that they'll be so unsuccessful. But! Then again, I have more friends who can actually commit and follow through on making it, yeah you know.

So it's already Christmas Eve tomorrow. Tell me why I don't feel like it is. I feel so scrooge saying that, haha. Que ever.



Happy Holidays!

"you need to step it up"

fuuuuuuck.
i'm real happy about finals being over and all but practice today was a major killjoy. i wanted to like cry and argue and all that stupid shit.

but! on a happier note, i've been driving to school (:
i really do hope tonight brings me something to smile about.
and tomorrow, you should go help out dance team and let us wrap your gifts for tips! trader joe's on san fernando & balboa (;
sunday, i hope i go! i miss the kids in atwater.



happy break!

"here comes the cold

break out the winter clothes
and find a love to call your own."





but it's always so easy for john mayer. not exactly for the rest of us *ahem.
boo hoo, sob sob. hahahaha.

why why why

do i always speak so so so soon.


this has been the most eventful december. or at least beginning of december. i haven't had to deal with so much in my whole life more than i have this year.
ay yai yai,
screwing up, lauren!

oh hey;

nice haircut,

HAHA! you're really pathetic. i mean i was thinking it before but you just proved me right, thanks. (;
and you really do look like a little dog going from friend to friend 'cause nobody has respect for you anymore. oh, poor you. not. when is it going to get into that pretty little head of yours that the shit you do doesn't work for anyone. whatever, you're not worth anythinggg.




p.s. it looks better on me. <3