senior day

cool cool cool



foam machine monster, melanie. jk (;



why do you fight over foam, kids?



hahaha, mvp!



cute cute cute.





water balloon toss



swimmming!



hahahaha.



cutest couple ever.



ian, the giant.



sucks for you if you didn't go! i had a ridiculous amount of fun. actually, that's a lie. haha i had fun, but it wasn't thatfun, sorry slc. anywayyy. who knew slip n slide could be so much fun? minus the falling in the mud part. and why do people fight over foam? serrriously. boys & girls, don't have sex in the mud, please. it's not sanitary, your mother taught you better.

confused?

you shouldn't be. hm, i don't see how you can't find the similarities between what you did and what a certain someone else did. i've forgiven you not once, not twice, but three times. and the saddest part is you take what we give you and throw it away. you're still doing it. do you think we're stupid? hello. i wasn't born yesterday. i know a bad friend when i see one. is it because you don't think you're doing anything wrong? um, how would your boyfriend feel about this? and don't start saying that you weren't because it's not only me who noticed, i should remind you. so you keep doing what you're doing. i'm definitely not going to be a part of that. i'm not going to set myself up for that bs again. and was it really necessary to go tell him? i bet you manipulated the story in your favor too. i mean not only did you cost me my chances with him, not only did you hurt my feelings, but i just lost a friend because of you. so are you still confused? or do i seriously need to spell it out for you again. maybe this time we can have the conversation in front of everyone. 'cause obviously you're too hard headed to get the picture when we confront you privately. maybe it'll actually open your eyes. there's a reason why people call you names when we go around the spot. it's not a joke anymore. we both know that's not what you wanna come across as so stop being so careless with everyone's feelings except for your own. thanks.

new start.

i'm trying. i promise, i am.

things just kinda came down on me all at once. and it's almost like the more i tell myself i can get through this, something else just has to happen. "God is just testing me" yeah well i've been enduring a lot of this bs for quite some time now and i've gone to Him and i've even prayed for those who offend me but i'm still in this rut.


it's okay, i'm okay, it'll be okay.
when? i don't like feeling bad. and i feel like i've lost touch with all my real good friends. i miss teri, i miss jerwyn, i miss tiffany, i miss aaron, i miss nairi. nowadays, i feel like i'm walking on eggshells with all of them and i hate it because all i want is to vent and have them tell me it's going to be okay because it's most reassuring when i hear it from them. when we were close, i felt stable and all that. things happen, people change but i hate change and i don' t know what to do with it. "it is in changing that we find purpose." i can't see it, i'm sorry i'm trying to be as open minded as i can be and i just don't see how that works.


again,
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things i cannot change
the courage to change the things i can
and the wisdom to know the difference.